i.. always thought u were the one.but it turned out t be someone else.


so disappointing.

ytd was great. excited. yeah. cousins coming over soon.
angbaos angbaos! :D

as usual. to ah ma's place den t jon's place. but this yr damn sian. i didnt gamble at all):
i was too tired ah. i fell asleep in my aunt's room while watching tv. LOL. shermin kept waking me up! rahh.

went home t change cos tht fucking tube dress of mine is so fucking loose. breast.
so i was gng t meet jordan and cat was gng t meet lionel. so we went tgt. and ya. cab. wah. heart pain. midnight charge.

met up jor,lionel and vic. slacked at bk.
played pool.
the rest left while jor and i wenta catch FEARLESS!
and oh, THANKS jor for treats(:
-claps- DAMN NICE i tell u. based on true story. i SALUTE SHANGHAI WUSHU! :DD muaha!

after movie, slacked awhile and then we took the first train home. so damn tired.
gonna play games now! (:

happy chinese new yr! pull ur ear. come come everybody pull ur earr.

nobody dotes on me):

someone hit my butt so hard jus now. i jus rmbered. a guy somemore. HUR!

happy chi new yr eve. pull your ear.

was out with my dear herdiana this evening. had dinner at swensen. saw bryant.(:
shopped arnd bugis but i couldnt find clothes suit me. how sad):
headed t town and it was alr ehhhhhh 9? gosh. but i did managed t buy two tops! YAY. so harpeeeeee ah:DD
shop shop shop till 10plus. took train home. saw kelvin. been donkey yrs ive seen him man.

diana alighted at bedok.
so i went home alone LORRR):

i feel like dancing. gosh. but sometimes i wish i have a better voice. i feel singing too. but if i sing, all the birds everywhere wont be able t fly anymore. ):

out with xw and fei er this afternoon. shop. well, window shopping.
met up with don and rei for dinner. don's damn funny la. LOL.
and sorry joel i couldnt attend his dad's funeral. cheer up ya. loves-

anw fei er said smth.

"It's so scary when you suddenly realise your bf isnt your one."

But i think.

"It's more scary when you realise he's the one cos he might leave you one day."

accompanied roy t get his wonderful shoes at kembagan. so farrrrrr lorrrrrr.

at least we had our dinner at tamp. (:
so looking forward t that performance! YAY!



shall not think about it anymore.

i feel so
lost.


i rmbered i used t wait for you here and i was doing that again.

trying t do things behind my back?
something?
somebody?
someone?
you?
her?
him?

oh well.

cute.





i watched Tombstone Of The Fireflies. cried as if someone died. ):
anw, rain when i was bout t open my door. so sway. ):

met bryant at tamp platform.
sisi at braddell control.
her friend tongbang us.
how nice.
the cab passed by where u used t tongbang me.memories. :/

i smelled fart everywhere jus now. so smelly.

khit theung khoon maak. i miss you so much.

you want this? (:





u la u la u la. all ur fault!!!

oh baby, u rock\m/





happy birthday jon! (: wah bong. i almost fall jus now. so PAISEH leh):
its either the 2nd or 3rd time i am not gng out on friday. and it sucks so big timE!

whatever. u bastard.

so cute. hee.

hmmm. designs are so hard t get in. i am so sad.):

i will work hard. i will. i must.

fuck off or i'll .........

this is what i feel like doing to you. love you.

dreaming bout u everyday is just like having a nightmare everyday. today was a special one.


and i thought tmr will be a better day.

i seriously think you are a matha farker.

smile, cry. i choose t smile again.

i feel so empty.

i always thought u were part of my life. But now, i feel smth missing.











watched ghost of maenak today with cat,jen,manda and michelle. jen and manda keep covering their eyes. so cute. LOL. finally we were out tgt again! (:

manda and her partner are okay now. feel so happy for her.

i want t rule the stage. Funkamania was hot. just wait. maybe next yr):

Imagine me without you.
As long as stars shine down from heaven
And the rivers run into the sea
Til the end of time forever
You're the only love I'll need

In my life
You're all that matters
In my eyes the only truth I see
When my hopes and dreams have shattered
You're the one that's there for me

When I found You I was blessed
And I will never leave You,
I need You

Chorus:
Imagine me without You
I'd be lost and so confused
I wouldn't last a day,
I'd be afraid
Without You there to see me through

Imagine me without You
Lord, You know it's just impossible
Because of You, it's all brand new
My life is now worthwhile
I can't imagine me without You

When You caught me I was falling
You're love lifted me back on my feet
It was like You heard me calling
And You rush to set me free

When I found You I was blessed
And I will never leave You, I need You

Chorus

When I found You I was blessed
And I will never leave You, I need You

oh

Chorus
I can't imagine me without You

this tells how i feel.

One Last Cry Brian Mcknight

My shattered dreams and broken heart
Are mending on the shelf
I saw you holding hands
Standing close to someone else
Now I sit all alone
Wishing all my feelings was gone
I gave my best to you
Nothing for me to do
But have one last cry

[Chorus:]
One last cry
Before I leave it all behind
I gotta put you out of my mind this time
Stop living a lie
I guess I'm down to my last cry
Cry.....I was here
You were there
Guess we never could agree
While the sun shines on you
I need some love to rain on me
Still I sit all alone
Wishing all my feelings was gone
Gotta get over you
Nothing for me to do
But have one last cry
[Chorus:]
One last cry
Before I leave it all behind
I goota put you out of my mind
For the very last time
Stop living a lieI guess I'm down,
I guess I'm down
I guess I'm down...
I guess I'm down...
To my last cry...

im so shocked tht u made my dream comes true. thats lovely.

i seriously FUCKING HATE you! YOU motherfucker! i feel like throwing you in my house toilet bowl! and flush flush flush it, u stupid MOFO! crack ur fingers into pieces and and WADEVER! blah. blooh bluh bleh. RAHH! pull both of ur legs up t ur head and put u inside a box and throw it into the sea and let the shark eat.

performace at gotham penhouse. cool. rocks my socks. i love it.

met up with xw t citylink. went to find baby & jon. lotsa riders today, skaters.
slacked awhile and went for dance.

yes, i do feel like dancing today. very shiok. im just afraid vips gonna spilt sooner or later.
yutaki said he wanted t form a elite female grp.
wow.
i was so damn happy.
but when i thought of my schoolwork, my life, i realised i cant even handle it. how am i gng t go on with my life.
i need time. everyday remedial. after remedial, art remedial. HOW? TELL ME HOW?!

sigh. i need someone t guide me.

if i cant make it t poly, ive decided t dance all of my life. i swear and i promise.
nvr ever give up on dance.

and im very stress up with school works. everyone so smart and they can easily catch up with the teachers.
IM NOT AT ALL. how sad.

saw xw's blog and i feel like writing bout mine too.

i rmbered i wenta meet the vip girls at citylink and i saw those i used t call "bikers".
i saw there's pink, white and green bikes. "wow, hot" i thought.
we practiced our dance almost everyday. they came usually tues, thurs and sats.
and during 7plus, they'll cycled out for dinner and come back arnd 9plus.

"cute." i thought again. started t spot him everytime he came down. he kept sms-ing.
"he has a gf. sigh."
secretly sat beside him. feeling so happy. when shirley told me who she interested and xw, i kept quiet. i was so shy t tell them. HAHA. soon, i did told them.

everday, looking at him riding.
thinking, "how i wish he's mine." dammit! he has a gf!"


named them, white chocolate as mine, pinky brownie as ray, bg as jon.

i went arnd t look for their friendster. i found jon's. i was so happy and tried t look for white choco. nah, couldnt find. give the address link t shirley. they chatted. and xw as well.

before i wenta hk, msg came, it was shirley. "eh, ur white choco got gf liao."
i was wif my dear herdiana. i almost cried. "man, wrong crush again la"
flied t hk. i gave up on my white choco. nah. "no hope la ."
i went online.
xw, " eh, ur white choco dont mind making friends with u leh. he's a thai la."
OMG! and i thought again, "really meh? but got gf liao leh."
xw," aiyah, can make friends one la. want anot? i give u his number."
" hmmm, dont want la. see how when i get back."

when i came back, jon knew bout it. rmbered the day i went for dance prac, white choco was there.
i got wacked by gary by towel. ouch! he saw.

at night, jon asked me t sms him. nah. im afraid t crush on the wrong person again.
white choco msged me instead! i was so happy:D

"eh, just now u got wacked by towel, not pain ah?" -he saw i told u.
"pain la, running arnd like monkey ah." i replied.
"yah lor. abit. hahaha."

friends. now partners.
purple choco now. ray as orange brownie? HAHA. jon's always the same.

love at first sight, my baby vith. im afraid.why?

wenta baby's place today. he damn funny.
he acc me watched nangnak. OMG! my disc at his place! argh shucks! nvm.
blah blah blah. didnt went for dance. yutaki's angry. suddenly, i damn sian of dance alr.
i need VIP. i want VIP. so VIP , please be there for me. ):

dharni said vip can be e best. like really meh? :/

first day of school sucks la. sunburn damn pain somemore!


i miss him so much tht i dont know why.
the moment i wanted t tell u i love u,
the next moment i cant say it out.

while waiting for xw and jonnnnn.

baby drew this for me. LOL. i love t slp.
xw love jonn.

xw and me.

xw and her darling jon. LOL. wad a pose!

baby and me. he's so tanned! i must win HIM!

i drew this for baby! first time drawing it okay! he loves snoopy! (:
jon did this i think. iloveyou. I
LOVE
YOU
xw's and jon's hardwork. HAHA.
during the musical performance!
TADA!




weee! today went t sentosa with baby, xw and jon(: baby came over t tamp t fetch me. uh oh. he didnt sleep for 24hrs. HAHA. sorry baby. xp he's sweet but he kept complaining! RAHH!

anw, met up with jon n xw at harbourfront mrt. we took bus t siloso just t get cigg. AHEM* forgive him as he came down t fetch me. no more next time.hope he's broke. LOL.

its so cloudy. we built sand castle and all. so fun! i got sunburn. aww. painful.
and it started t rain. so we wenta bathe and all. had our dinner at BK. MUSICAL FOUNDTAIN!
so damn nice. so damn tired as well. wenta slacked at mac. den went home. argh! tmr school. SUCKS!

im so damn worried now. baby didnt reply my msg and he didnt pick up my cal. SHUCKS! think he's slping. miss him so much now): gd night!

DID I MENTION THAT IM HAPPY? NO RIGHT? OMG. i heart my baby. <3 he made my 2006 so BIANG!

the babes and i(:
baby,jon and ray.
the V.I.Ps!
xw and jon! <3
hottie ash and mey.
hahaha. jon's fingers!
the flatlanders!
that's my boy
thats JON!
and ray!
after their performances. fireworks time!







baby, this cute angmoh(LOL), jon,sherlyn, roy and ray.

woohoo! happy new yr everyone. even to the ones i hate. cos im gonna forget everything.
so this yr, if i dont like U, pls shooooo. LOL. jk la.

had dance performance ytd. baby, jon and ray are performing too. i travelled all the way t potong pasir): so far. den we took cab there. it started t rain. awww. and btw, the performance held at BOON LAY. i stayed in tampines know! :/ okay anw, did all the make-ups and hair done.
thanks jun,ash, xw and fei er. lol. 4 person helping out my hair. it was a nice one! had our rehearsal and realised we burned the wrong song. which is not the edited one. WAH BEH. can die. cannot use ipod somemore. we decided t choreo some steps in the middle. SO damn last min. BUT WHO CARES. thats how the V.I.Ps behave! \m/ we rock! hahaha. we damn slacked i tell u. woohooo. and the sad thing is shirley couldnt make it. ):

after the performance, the rest went back while only me n xw acc the guys. there's a cheerleading grp. damn power! not long, its their turn. i FEEL so proud of baby. cos its his first time and he's a newbie. and he's not bad! hahaha. some newbie dont even dare t do it cos they can hurt themselves easily. thats why. baby bled alot on his leg. poor thing): i took their video! damn it was so cool! they did it on the road somemore! WOHOO~ there's SLOPE leh. slope slope slope. baby and the rest always call me slope. ):

when everything's over, we took cab t esplanade t see fireworks. but traffic jam. lucky the uncle stopped at some corner for us t get down. it was a nice nice nice postition. took pics. watching sucha nice fireworks with baby during new yr. it was a very gd feeling(: and i got a kiss after the fireworks! (: heart u baby.

we headed down t citylink. at this time, "people jam". LOL. the guys ride there. sherlyn came over too! made a new friend limin. (: she's nice. the way she talks is funny. hAHA.
baby tong bang me t mac. damn hungry ah. thanks baby(:************* slacked.

ray, darrel and dunno who wenta buy some beer. at first they were playing some games, those who lost, u'll have t drink. and the dunno who kept drinking la. cos he lost wad. he cant play for nuts. he's a LOSER man. seriously. he started t throw bottle at ray. ray got fed up. and they started the fight. all were drunk alr. the eyes, mouth bled. whoo. the dunno who deserved it ah. ray's fierce. but he's damn funny la. i was laughing throughout the fight. fight damn long ah. like more den 30mins. i mean they stopped and fight again. police came. HA. too late xp they stopped when ray took the thongs frm dunno where.and the dunno who scared liao lor. HEH. BOO!

lol. ray kept gng arnd t tell people story. lol. damn cute and funny eh. wah beh. baby nearly get into fight eh! jon down there. ??? lol. xw has t explain t him. lol.

anrd 7, they sent us t the mrt. (: home. AND AH. in the train ah. so PAISEH KNOW! i slept den suddenly my head dropped t the right. wah beh. lucky only one uncle saw): and we supposed t go out today.but damn tired ah. ):